Pledge

This is not a well-written post that will move you in ways you did not think you could be moved. It is not a perfect view of language or wonder. It is simply something that I believe in, wrote down and posted. It is a statement of my feeling.

The blood of martyrs stains the path behind me. The blood of soldiers and victims, mothers, fathers, sons and daughters, all stain the path behind me. The path behind me has created orphans and monsters, demons and saints.
The path behind me is the path before me.
Every step I take makes what is ahead, under. One more step and what is under, is behind.
My very existence should be a celebration of all that has gone before me.
To quote/paraphrase: In Gladiator, the character of Maximus states that “What we do in life echoes in eternity”. In 300, the character of Leonidas proclaims to Xerxes that “The world will know that free men stood up to a tyrant, that the few stood up against the many”.
It is this statement, amongst others, that show the gift that has been given to us, that has been fought for so bloodily.
Before us and for us, billions have died. After us trillions will die. We cannot squander the gift that has been given to us. After death, we are merely a number, but during life, we are a person.
To make me, two people had to meet. To make those two, four people had to meet. To make those four, eight people had to meet. The numbers of my ancestors, their weight and sacrifice, must not be wasted.
Our past has given us wonders beyond counting, and atrocities beyond reason.
The path behind is stained. The path ahead is stained.
But the path ahead can be cleaned and purified. The wonders may increase, and the atrocities will decrease.

So then, today, I make my pledge.

I will not squander the chance that has been given to me. Each day I will live in celebration of all that has come before and faith in all that will follow. I will live my life to not end up a number, but end up a person. A name, history and legacy.
Today I pledge to not waste the sacrifices made for me.

I pledge it.

Block

It’s sometimes hard to come up with something meaningful and worthy of being posted. This is pretty much the sole reason that I post so rarely, even though I am meant to be posting a couple of times a week. I think the the problem to this is that I view my self as a professional, when I have barely even achieved amateur status.

So from now on, I will be posting whenever I have a thought in my mind that I can pin down enough to share it. Hopefully this will happen at least once a week and, with time, they will get progressively better as I get better at tracking, capturing and transcribing these thoughts.

So for today, I guess my thought is that I am not so good at tracking, capturing and transcribing my thoughts. If I lose sight of it once, I give up on it entirely and watch Youtube, and if I do capture it, I often try to write it in its full glory, not realising that my skills may not be up to it entirely. It is for this reason that I decided to start writing in series, where I deal with one aspect of a thought at a time.

All in all, things are looking up (I have now posted twice in two days) and I think that my skills are leveling up. Hopefully one day I will be a level 60 hunter, rather than the brand new account I have now.

As always,

Be Safe.
Be Strong.

Anonymity

One of the benefits of the internet is that if affords one anonymity. This allows us to be whoever we want to be, to say whatever we want to, without having to fear the results of such deception and action. I could say I am eight feet tall and a world-class basketball player or that I am the life of the party and desired throughout the land. Now while these may or may not have some truth to them, they do still occur.

So I have decided to use thus anonymity to make some confessions about who I really am. While I hope this may have some effect on you, it is more just an affirmation of who I truly am, in a place where I could be anyone I want to be. It is a statement.

Firstly, I am a coward. I do not try because I am so terrified of failure, O do not try because I could not deal with the disappoint of my family. I do not try because if I do try and fail, I will lose faith in myself and become extremely discouraged. I do not try new things or try to pursue them, I merely cycle through old, safe things. I cannot commit to anything for the fear that it will end or I will fail.

Secondly, I am a fool. I have this idea of who I should be that I hold to closely, to the point that I can never be him. I am stifled by my own aspirations.

Actually, I am just mainly a coward. I do not face my fears, I do not want to seem weak, I do not want to fail or succeed (as this will increase the height from which I can fall). Basically, here, on this platform when I could say I am a brave person, I will admit that I am not. Even in games, I play defensively, not wishing to commit to anything until victory is assured.

However, as all things  should end on a happy note, I am working through my problems but realising them and here is a clip that is morbid but cheerful.

As always.

Be Safe.
Be Strong.

P.S. Since this has proven to be such a therapeutic exercise, I will be doing it in a series of sorts, with a post being dedicated to a positive or negative aspect of who I truly am. So I will finish this post up with cowardice.